Accessing higher Self
[From Dialogue on Awakening]
“What is it that I need to do to access my higher Self?”
There is a place of trust that at this moment you are not consciously familiar with. It is a place where you feel the footing is very soft and tenuous. You have built a pattern of feeling needy—needy of confirmations, needy of loving yourself. If you could envision yourself as being two different people, you would see one of them standing with arms spread wide, beckoning you to come nearer, wishing that you would let go of the reluctance to embrace. You would see then the other aspect of yourself standing back and looking in awe at the one who was beckoning and feeling totally disconnected.
You do see your Self, that Self that possesses the wisdom that you seek at this moment, but you are not in a position of allowing yourself to be in absolute acceptance of it. You do hear, but you hear in a way that is intellectually pleasing and yet emotionally unacceptable to the conscious self that you now see yourself as being. What I am telling you is that you are already there, but you are unaccepting of finding yourself being there. It is this lack of acceptance which filters out the truth of what you are hearing.
There is much you have understood as having application in your life from what you have considered to be a spiritual point of view, but you have dissociated this spiritual point of view from that which you call your practical life. In other words, you feel that it’s fine to ingest the spiritual knowledge, but you find it difficult to see its practical applicability to solving your daily problems. I encourage you to understand that there is no distinction between what you are understanding as spiritual input and practical input. If you could look at it all as being your input and allow it to be integrated in a practical fashion, you would become more accepting of it as you saw it begin to work.
What I am speaking of is not something that I would refer to as grandiose or complex, but more simply as the application of letting go of your fear and opening up a space which is big enough to allow more of your loving, peaceful Self to come in. I am not speaking in terms that are metaphorical. I am suggesting that all that happens to you is first taking place in your mind. Your mind is now perceived as being full of the thoughts that you currently have, and there is no space for your thoughts to take on a different attitude.
One of the most practical applications of learning to stay in the moment is simply this: a mind that is full of fears and apprehensions that have been made and confirmed by past thinking patterns sees no space for alternative thinking. It is a mind that sees itself as being full. It has misidentified the reason the problems seem to be present, seeing them as having originated from an outside source, and demands that all your attention be focused on formulating plans which will solve the problems. While you are engaged in this process, your mind is closed to anything else. It is filled with the problems and seeking ways to solve them. When fear is present, your attention will focus on anticipating circumstances or events similar to those which have manifested this fear to you in the past, thus appearing to confirm their reality. Because your attention is on them, you will again make the experience of them, deepening your belief in their validity. And so the cycle becomes imprinted in your mind as a pattern which self-perpetuates.
A mind that knows only this instant does not recognize the past and is not concerned or fearful of the future. And that does create space, an openness into which this dialogue, this wisdom that you are seeking, may penetrate. It will be into that space, as you allow yourself to be in that frame of mind, that the wisdom will come and you will recognize very clearly where it is coming from.
So when you ask how you can be in contact with your Self, I am saying you already are, but because your mind is so full you do not recognize its Presence. So every now and again, empty out the cup by being present only in this instant.
“Could you share what the process of emptying out the cup would be like?”
Breaking old patterns and replacing them with new patterns is difficult enough to do, and breaking old patterns and allowing no new patterns to take their place will be even more difficult for you to do. I will suggest a process and a procedure if you would care to try. I am in no way attempting to discourage you by telling you that you will not find this easy, although the process is quite simple. I am telling you this so that you will not become discouraged if at first you do not find that you are easily able to do it.
An Image Given:
Envision an hour glass with sand in the upper half, floating in a clear, cool pond which is nestled in a beautiful meadow lush with wild flowers. The rim of the glass and sand is just level with the surface of the pond. The hourglass is a metaphor of your mind, completely filled as the sand symbolically illustrates. It is so full that the water of the pool, representing the Christ consciousness, the stream of your fully conscious Self, can only ripple across the top.
As you watch the sand slowly drain away, allow your mind to open up space as you see the sand slowly going down and more space being created until the sand is all gone. As the sand has been draining away, the water from the pool of consciousness just naturally fills the space. Its flow has a very gentle, peaceful and loving feeling. It is this feeling that reassures you that simply because the sand thoughts have drained out doesn’t mean there is nothing left except a void. But more appropriately, the space is filled with this flow of feeling that is totally cohesive and not fragmented and into which you can just allow yourself to become safely immersed. As you have this Vision and see yourself becoming totally immersed in it, you know that what is happening is that you are allowing your divine Mind to embrace you.
Allow the feeling that being in this fluid is like being in the womb of your Divine Mind. This feeling, if you hold it and allow it to give you a sense of nurturing, will encourage you to see yourself as being born into the divinity of your natural Self. While you are engaged in this process, you won’t be receiving answers to any specific questions, or trying to solve any pressing problems. The very act of your experiencing yourself being in this womb of Divinity will begin to open you consciously to all of the feelings that will allow you to recognize those problems that you have been working on for what they really are, and to keep them in a perspective that will no longer make them seem fearful to you.
Hold no expectations. Allow the process itself to unfold for you and allow yourself to be open to the experience of that unfoldment. It will be that which will keep you constant and will keep your attention clearly focused on right now.
“This would be in a meditative state?”
Yes. The most peaceful state that you are able to allow yourself to be in. The more frequently you attempt this, the more completely you will find you are able to allow yourself to become immersed in it. As you envision this fluid, see yourself dissolve into it, and know that what is happening is that you are opening yourself to merge with your Divine Mind. Enter into this process in total trust, absolutely total trust, that what your divine Mind represents for you will be made known to you in ways that require no questioning. It will become a process of Knowing.
[ch 1, pg 31]